in some ways you just dont know how to describe the things you feel. u dont wanna complain, u dont wanna cry, u just want it all to go back to the way things were when you were still smiling and laughing at the little things in life. not wondering if she was gunna be there tomorrow or if he really did use you. when you realize theres not much you can control in life, what do you do? its like running into a wall and realizing without help theres no way you can get around without hurting urself. theres always ur family, but theyre in pain too. and ur friends will slowly get tired of hearing it. what happens next? everyone has their time to cry, whens hers? watching the one person u look up to break down in front of you, how do you handle it? seeing ppl drink themselves away just to make the pain leave. is it ever gunna stop? what is it gunna be like when she's gone?

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

Have you fallen in a black hole?
Somewhere there's a universe of missing stuff
What happened to the good times?
What happened to the moments where we had so much?
Where's the love?

<---i love you chelsea.

ok so the days are getting better =]

not at school today cuz i feel sick && im tired of it.

party friday?

<---love this icon. =]

worst day of my life.

so damn depressing with everything thats going on.

this is so fucking gay.

what hurts the most,
was being so close..
and having so much to say,
and watching you walk away,
and never knowing
what could have been..
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do..

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.

goodbye my lover.
goodbye my friend.
you have been the one.
you have been the one for me.

kevin made this one for me.. cuz he's the bestest ever. miss you kevin.

and as you move on, remember me,
remember us and all we use to be.

i saw your face in a crowded place,
and i don't know what to do,
cause i'll never be with you.